merapi mumbles

how did i get here

it's becoming clear

through the sweltering heat i must steer

molten memories sear 

who would have thought

once surrender sought

back to tropics He brought

parked me in His lot

a hot lingo spot

i am not sure what i got

it's amazing
to observe human race racing
no matter where
to fill cupboards bare
when full, only emptiness stare
self-imposed life burdens to bear

ignorance is bliss
for you'd have less to compare and miss
so many paths i could have taken
despite my weak faith, i was never forsaken

like job's journey
i've been faith-blessed a-plenty 

faith-tested in many dark alleys

faith-coped with His pulleys

          faith-transformed in work-in-progress galleys

humming... 

i, i who have nothing

i, i who have only You

adore You, and want You so

i'm just a no one with nothing to give to You, but oh how You love me...

 job 42:2, 5-6 

 “ i know that you can do all things;
   no purpose of yours can be thwarted

   my ears had heard of you
   but now my eyes have seen you.
   therefore i despise myself
   and repent in dust and ashes.”